Yes, I Allowed Myself To

I was sitting in my bed with my two feet covered in warm blanket

I was fine until I realized that this warm sheets wasn't as warm as your side

I was in the middle of conversation with some of friends and they were talking about love,

their love, and all I did was sitting there thinking about what we had

I mean what I had for you and you didn't have for me

I allowed myself to fall for you,

I allowed myself to give my vulnerable heart for someone I thought would be the one

I allowed myself caught up in so many fantasies about a happy ending

I allowed myself to give all I have to someone who couldn't love me the way I needed to be loved

I have nothing left with me

Nothing but my late night thought that I wasn't enough

Nothing but my bruised heart, tired heart

Nothing but every piece of hope that maybe he might want me back

But,

I allowed myself to imagine a happy ending with him

I allowed myself to believed that me and him might still have a chance

I allowed my heart to seal, to keep loving him the way I always do

I allowed my world to keep revolving around him

Yes,

All this time I'm the one who allowed my self to stop moving and waiting for him

I was the one who allowed my self to.